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silence

when words don't justify feelings
let silence do the talking.....
when words start to fall on deaf ears,
let silence take over.
when lips meet, and they feel each other...
let silence fill the air with love....
When you shout out aloud and the echo comes back to haunt you...
let silence soothe your ears.
When you find Him in you, and you cant explain how it feels....
Let silence explain it all...


When He hears your prayers
He sends angels and conjures up miracles...
He says not a word...
Coz He knows..... silence speaks best.

Sometimes in life, no matter what words you use to describe what is happening in your life....they still aren't enough to express how you feel.You know there's no one around to answer your questions, no one would reply.But you also know that someone is listening up there, always watching over you.
So overwhelming is this feeling that, all you can do is sit back, be silent, say nothing,shut your eyes....and feel your heartbeat.....only hoping to find answers in thos…
A few months back, i vowed not to write my diary anymore.All its pages were filled with the same sad words, the sad poems.Every time i took a pen in my hand and started to write in it, i found that i had no good words to write.The diary had become this collection of negative thoughts,suicidal thoughts,frustration,anger,pain.There came a time when i just wanted to throw it away because i coudnt read it myself.There were a thousand many bad experiences but i always forgot to jot down the good ones,always.I decided not to write in it any more until i had some good words to write about my life.

It was then that i started blogging.My blog became my punching bag.
And then as months passed by, when i read my old posts...i've realised that my blog has become as sad as my diary was.So much negativity, so much of pain....I've become almost like an emo.For all this while, i made it seem like i had all the troubles in the world.Thought that i was the tragedy queen or something.And when i re…

help me please!!

hey guys i need some help here with the template.The new template i found is not of the xml type...so i guess its not supporting additional widgets.I've had a hard time finding templates and after hours and hours of searching and testing i chose this one.But now i cannot add widgets to it.If any one knows how to do that please,let me know....i really dont want to change the template now.So if you have some solution or any suggestion let me know.

goal

Happened to see this movie goal today, found it quite inspiring....
check out the trailer and also the song by oasis...cast no shadows...



Eight days that felt like a lifetime

As i saw the stations passing by and the narrow gray lanes disappearing into the woods, my heart broke once again.I was returning home after 8 days, yes only 8 days.Eight ordinary days perhaps for some other people but 8 days that felt like a lifetime for me.Yet they seemed too less.There were so many photographs that i clicked but the only one that flashed in front of my eyes while returning in the train back home, was that of people waving and saying goodbye.People i meet only once a year and sometimes even just once in 2-3 yrs.Yet feel so close to them once i go to this place, as if i was just here with them always.
The place i am talking about is my native place Redi.That's where my cousins live and where once my grandparents used to live.There's something in the air in this place that lures me towards it.Its perhaps coz my grandparents lived here and because this is the place where i used to spend my summer vacations as a kid and i still do.For me its the most beautiful pl…

walk on...

As i slept last night peacefully listening to the radio i came across this song by U2,Walk on.I suddenly remembered the cd that had been lying in the last drawer of my study table.It lay there all dusty and unused.I had almost forgotten how much i loved listening to U2's songs.It used to be my favorite band but ever since i started listening to coldplay,lp,avril and others i completely forgot about U2's music.I like u2 for the message they convey in every song.Every other band's song does that but sometimes the lyrics are so repetitive and some times so senseless.But with u2, every song has a different story to tell.And the charity work thats done by the band is really worth praising.In particular,out of all the u2 songs, i like walk on,with or without you,sometimes you cant make it on your own(a song bono sung on his dads funeral),stuck in a moment.

so,I picked up this cd tat lay untouched for months and played it.and man it felt so good listening to the songs again.I kee…

just a lesson life taught me today...

The more you try to hold the sand in your hand the more it slips out of it.......

I am in love!!

I guess it happening all over again!.....Been on my knees and crying for quite a few days.It felt there was no love left in this pathetic world. Life felt so low.It felt like someone sucked all the happiness out of my life.And all I was filled with was, vacuum.I almost believed that everything was over.I was breathing and i was alive.But i was only existing and not 'living'. But then life kicked me in the butt and said 'move on asshole!The world around you is still the same....if some thing's out of place then its you!pick up the pieces and just get going!'...When i looked around these words sounded so true to me. The world was exactly the way it should be....perhaps it was time for me to change my perspective. A new feeling filled me-the feeling of love .I've been dancing crazily all around my house(when no one's around).I have been smiling for no reason at all.I've started hogging like a pig again! I've been cracking my pj's like old times and…

picture of the day...

Today was a day of delays......we had to wait for the external examiner (had our vivas)to come.I mean, you can blame students when they are late but what when teachers purposely make students wait for no fuckin reason at all?....So this lady came and the first thing she did when she came....she had her lunch!...You keep students waiting for hours who are first of all already have to bear the torture of exams and then secondly wait tired and hungry to give these exams!Thats just not fair.We should have been given 10 extra marks for our patience!
Anyway we had fun nevertheless amidst the tensed atmosphere! When friends are around there's no place for boredom!....

so this is according to me the picture of the day!...thats my friend amy,tired of waiting for the professor.Poor girl,shez the class rep and she's the one who has to bear the teachers' lectures when she fights for our rights!..I respect her for what she is.....and one of my closest friends.And not to forget, she write…

prison break

So i've been too sad these days.....reason- exam pressure and some other reasons too.But i guess i am just spreading too much negativity through my posts.
But today i am relieved, i am just fine and moved on.Finally i got out of my house today,phew!...went out with my friends had burgers and gola....i had a blast.My friends are my life line.If it werent for them i would have been sad all over again today.

Looking forward to more such days,coz i just want to break this habit. Break the prison walls(of my home).No one put me behind these bars, it was just a self imposed punishment.
But i am so happy that i've (sort of) broken my internet addiction...not exactly but thoda bahot....I am back to sane ways of living life.yuhooo!...

ok that wasnt even a post....thought i had to break the chain of negative posts....
no more emo posts...hopefully..:)

rising from the ashes....

There were moments of insanity
there were moments of frustration
there were paths that were painful
there were points of no return.

I've been on one way lanes
where i couldn't turn around
i've stood on edges of cliffs
where there were valleys deep down.

I've walked on barren lands
trying to find the horizon
when i looked around for water
all i found was.... poison.

I've slept underneath the stars
and i've also borne the rain
i've withstood the scorching heat
In return i got more pain.

There were times i thought
in an ocean i would drown
But He dragged me to the shore,
turned to smiles, my frown.

He revived me
when i stopped breathing
He consoled me
when i cried.
when fears lead my way,
I let Him be my guide

I've been through hell and back
I've seen the darkest hour
Still i saw rays of hope
And felt His miraculous power.

Let fate have the last laugh today
let it taunt,let it mock
But one day i'll rise from the ashes
and stand solid as a rock!

Down-and-out...

Her eyes were fixed....on the lone tree standing in the distance. It's leaves rustling in the wind.....some falling down due to the heat they had borne for days and some due to the sheer force of the wind.They fell on the road below....being run over by cars.They lay there bearing the weight of those cars....coz they couldnt pick themselves up...they were all alone and helpless.The road seemed busy....a thousand many faces passed by. But she didn't see even one of them.....she only saw past those faces.Gazing blankly at the leaves....Till yesterday nothing of what was happening in her life made sense to her.She held her face in her hands and cried untill it almost soaked the clothes she wore. She introspectedevery thing that had been happeningand tried to find out if there was a meaning to all of this.From those rose tinted glasses she wore all the time,she wondered if she was seeing an illusion.They had failed so many times before...they had betrayed her so many times before.…